“I could count the ways I’ve done wrong, but I’ve done that ten million times before. Don’t know why I felt so wrong about doing right. The nights drag as I shift to and fro, from worry to blistering confidence - always ending back at worry. I know. I worry too much. There’s a lot at stake here, and in light of recent points of clarity - I’m unwilling and unable to forthrightly cede this thing. This thing that has taken on a life of its’ own, this thing that has become something much more than I, or you, or Us.
Clarity is one of the more painful circumstances of the human condition. With clarity comes the truth, with the truth comes regret, with regret comes a lesson, and with each lesson comes grace.
Though, I will say one last thing: a lesson being learned is not equivalent to nor the cause of an ending. An ending hasn’t been written yet.”
