A House Mentality.

"You might find yourself angry at the things I do Things I put you through Hope you’re able to..."

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 06:56:07 -0700

“

You might find yourself angry at the things I do
Things I put you through
Hope you’re able to forgive me like I forgive you
Aww girl what are you thinkin’?
I’m thinking that we… ooh… should stick together
I reckon that we… ooh… should follow our hearts
Let’s stick together
Let’s follow our hearts
Not even lions can tear us apart

I’m lookin’ for answers
Some kind of relief
Some kind of salvation to make it all complete

Aww girl what are you thinkin’?
I’m thinking that we… ooh… should stick together
I reckon that we… ooh… should follow our hearts
Let’s stick together
Let’s follow our hearts
Not even lions can tear us apart

Let’s stick together
Let’s follow our hearts
Not even lions can tear us apart

Aww girl what are you thinkin’?

”

"I would be sad because you left me all alone. I would be sad because the lies that you had told. I..."

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:27:17 -0700

“

I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad because the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adore.
I would be sad because the love I had before.

I meant what I said when I said I would settle down with you
although I know it’s not something that you were asking me to do.
And I know we are young but we won’t always be, so marry me;
lets not be that predictable young couple changing, moving on.
But I can tell by watching you that there’s no chance of pushing through.
The odds are so against us; you know most young love it ends like this.

I meant what I said when I said I would rearrange my plans and change for you.
You know me; I’ve always been the kind with easy confidence.
Confident enough to honestly believe that nothing out there’s stopping me especially not someone who’s not loving me.
Now listen here I told you I could live on without loving you.
I was bluffing then, but it seems that just might have been the truth.
Well my dad told me, “One day son, this girl will think of what she’s done and hurting you will be the first of many more
regrets to come.”
And he said, “If she doesn’t call, then it’s her fault and it’s her loss.”
I say, “It’s not that simple see, but then again it just may be.”

I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad for the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adored.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.

”

"I found myself slipping into another funk, thoughts of you lingering. The audacity of time to move..."

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 05:46:57 -0700

“

I found myself slipping into another funk, thoughts of you lingering. The audacity of time to move forward with such haste, and leave you and I behind.

Then I stopped myself. Looking through some old letters, I realized I had pined over you for pretty much the entire time we’ve known each other. From Day 1, this is how I’ve felt. Not sure what you exactly want from me, not sure how to be who I needed to be.

Now we’ve spent more time apart than together and my brain still won’t let me remember that this seems to be forever. I’ve grown, and you’ve grown, but we could never get it together enough to actually grow together. Always one in front of the other, patiently waiting for realizations to set in and life to make sense.

As I do what I always do (pour myself into my work and disappear), this time it’s not so easy. No matter how I try. Apparently this time isn’t on my terms.

”

Months later. Still can’t let go. I hope you find what it is you’re looking for. The...

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 05:37:00 -0700

Months later. Still can’t let go. I hope you find what it is you’re looking for.

The winter’s chill chilled me to the bone this year
And something in my mind just got away
Being in the places where we used to be
Somehow being there without you’s not the same.

Parking lots, office parks and shopping malls
And all you left were bills you hadn’t paid.
The winter’s chill chilled me to the bone this year
And something in my mind just got away

It’s all behind you now,
You’re moving on.
They’ll never find you now,
You’re moving on, on, on.
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, naa
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, naa

Alcohol, cigarettes and luxury goods,
Christmas lights look desperate in this room.
Winter’s light left me in the dark last night
And Jingle Bells are smothered in this gloom.

Winter’s trees freezing in the bitter wind
And autumn’s leaves have all been blown away.
Being in the places where we used to be
Somehow being there without you’s not the same.

It’s all behind you now,
You’re moving on.
They’ll never find you now,
You’re moving on, on, on.
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, naa
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, naa

I had the chance to do the thing I never thought I could doAnd as I let you fall apartI found...

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 10:05:09 -0800

I had the chance to do the thing I never thought I could do
And as I let you fall apart
I found something ugly in between the two of us
I never saw the blood inside

I blew the windows off the house with a single, lonely, “Help”
And in the wreck I saw
Something beautiful in you and I and so I thought it loud
We’re still alive

Oh, oh
Are you something you’re not?
Hey, I
I think you’re still made of gold

If we keep living like we’re living then I think that we Should try and grow old
But the truth is that you are dangerous now
So you can cry yourself to sleep

We took the plant, we took the root, we dug it up
And we moved
And in that hole we found
Something that we knew would always take us all the way
Up to the top
Let’s never think about the days we felt like strangers again
And in that way I feel, everything’s changed, but
Everything’s the same
And I won’t repeat pretend

Oh, oh
Are you something you’re not?
Hey, I
I think you’re still made of gold

If we keep being like we’re being then I think that we
Should try to grow old
But the truth is that that you are dangerous now
So you can cry yourself to sleep

Oh, oh
Are you something you’re not?
Hey, I
I think you’re still made of gold

If we keep living like we’re living then I think that we Should try to grow old
I’m not scared of the one, I’m not afraid
Of the cold
But in the darkness there’s a shadow with a voice
And it’s bold
A light’s coming down the tunnel
But the truth is that you are dangerous now
So you can cry yourself to sleep

new york city friends, i’ll be filling in for my friends Around the World and Back this...

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 23:07:44 -0800

new york city friends, i’ll be filling in for my friends Around the World and Back this saturday 1/28 at the bowery electric. the show’s an early one so you can still make all social functions afterwards or hang out and get interesting with us. we’re on at 7:30pm. these animals is headlining and is awesome.

rehearsed with WA last night, and the atwab guys tonight. back to WA tomorrow and then atwab rehearsals the rest of the week thru to the show on Saturday. then february begins a busy busy WA season of rock and roll.

feb 2 + 3 - back in the studio to finish the record
feb 4 - show - the bayou - glenville, ny / start filming for mini documentary
feb 10 - show - uno’s - queensbury, ny
feb 18 - show - suny purchase - purchase, ny
feb 24 - show - jillian’s w/ company of thieves - albany, ny / end filming for mini documentary

somewhere in february we’ll be releasing a new song and filming a music video as well.

the trap you set for me seems to have caught your leg instead.

Thu, 12 Jan 2012 09:18:01 -0800

the trap you set for me seems to have caught your leg instead.

AFTER

Tue, 06 Dec 2011 11:15:13 -0800

AFTER

BEFORE

Tue, 06 Dec 2011 07:23:04 -0800

BEFORE

Thank You Too

Tue, 01 Nov 2011 04:52:53 -0700

Really didn’t think i was gonna make it
Really didn’t think i was gonna make it this way
put on my robot face
had my emotions way far away from me
oh you really saw my naked heart
you really brought out the naked part
I don’t know what you were doing
I know I just want to thank you for thinking of me

I want to take you for all that you are
although our worlds seem far apart
I want to see you for all that you do
I want to thank you

it was strange and it was soothing
and you could even say amusing, the way it came to me
you devised a simple plan that would change the fate of man
you thought of everything
oh you really saw my naked heart
you really brought out the naked part
I don’t know what you were doing
I know I just want to thank you for thinking of me

I want to take you for all that you are
although our worlds seem far apart
I want to see you for all that you do
I want to thank you

i’ve tried but haven’t been able to find a more poignant song for how i’m feeling...

Sun, 16 Oct 2011 20:13:30 -0700

i’ve tried but haven’t been able to find a more poignant song for how i’m feeling these days.

I’m the eye that’s in your mind
mysteriously I fall fast asleep. Asleep.

Come on sweet love
we can pick it right up
where we left off anytime.
‘cause I, I won’t mind.
And all I know is all I can do is
just say it and ignite
I said what I said and I meant it.

I got these words in my head
but I can’t seem to get em out right now.
Said I got these words in my head
Gotta get em gotta get em
Gotta get em out right now
(cuz I can’t eat, and when I dream
it’s about you.)

Come on my dear
I know we had our problems
but we both know there’s
nothing to fear.
Cuz in time
We’ll make up for the space
Ya see I know it came between us
when we both had nothing to say.
I said what I said
and I meant it.

Well it’s your face in a field
when I fall asleep
It’s funny how it disappears
like it’s funny how it could wait.
and if I close my eyes and
I count to three
will I wake up in my bed
and will I wake up with you lying
next to me?

I’ll see you back home about
quarter to ten
with a bottle of tonic
and some bombay gin
in the backeat of my car
backseat of my car.
and we’ve been growing close

I never thought I’d hear you say goodbye.

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 23:26:53 -0700

I never thought I’d hear you say goodbye.

I am a musician. It’s all I’ve ever wanted to be, all I’ve ever thrown my entire...

Mon, 26 Sep 2011 15:25:50 -0700

I am a musician. It’s all I’ve ever wanted to be, all I’ve ever thrown my entire life force behind. When people ask me what I do for a living, I don’t tell them all of the three to four things I do to make money. I tell them I’m a musician. A “living,” to me, is not simply how one pays the bills - it’s how one thrives, it’s how a person continues to wake up each day and say that things aren’t so bad. I make a living out of music because sure, not only do I get paid for it on a regular basis, but because there is no where else (figuratively or literally) on this earth that I feel completely myself, except behind my drums.

Behind the kit, I owe no explanations. I owe no words, no thoughts, no gestures. Everything that I need to say is played. I know I often look ridiculous when playing the drums. I’m fine with that because it’s been that way for years and because it is the purest form of expression I can possibly think of. The way I play is not premeditated, it’s a direct and uncalculated reaction to the vibes surrounding me, from my bandmates, to the audience, to the venue, to the staff.

If you do not understand this about me - that is okay. Trying to change that about me is not. It comes from a place even I don’t understand. Deep within my psyche there is a need to play and an understanding that I’m only young once. Now is the time to full heartedly pursue these dreams. In a few years, I will no longer have the opportunity to tirelessly work towards this goal. I’ll eventually have to move on if things don’t progress the way I’d like them to. I’m fine with that. I’m also fine with every day I’ve spent on the road or in the studio since I was born.

In recent years my priorities have shifted and changed. My view towards life and love and relationships has drastically changed. Specific people have influenced me in so many positive ways, but until now no one had ever tried to sway me from my dreams. It’s with that in mind that I have to let go. The good memories and the strong feeling of love and connectedness will always pop forth in my mind, but they will have to take the back seat to one simple fact: I am not understood at the very core of my being. If I am not understood, how can I be loved?

“I must choose wisely the next note that I playIt determines the rest of the strainThe rhythm,...

Sat, 13 Aug 2011 21:39:39 -0700

“I must choose wisely the next note that I play
It determines the rest of the strain
The rhythm, the arrangement and melodies made
It’s the only thing keeping me sane
That’s why I absorb myself deep in each song
In hopes that it whisks me away
But the parts never last long enough and the chords growing faint
And eventually the band leaves the stage”

Piranhas Club

Sat, 04 Jun 2011 09:13:02 -0700

Throw me to piranhas if you won’t be with me
Feed me to koalas if you won’t be with me
I’m not a barracuda even though I flash the teeth
Throw me to piranhas if you won’t be with me

Is it all about the ebb and the flow
Or losing your mind sometimes and letting go?
You feel like you can’t breathe, you’re out of control
The world is a shitshow you barely can handle

And if you gotta smash some plates to relax
I say do it - d-d-d-d-d-d-do it
And if you gotta crash your car in a lake to feel sane
I say do it - just do it
And if you gotta scream until your voice breaks
I say do it - d-d-d-d-d-d-do it
And if you gotta punch your dad in the face
I say think about it -

Do it

Throw me to piranhas if you won’t be with me
Feed me to koalas if you won’t be with me
I’m not a barracuda even though I flash the teeth
Throw me to piranhas if you won’t be with me

Is it all about the highs and the lows
Or losing all your love and letting it go
You feel like you can’t deal, your heart’s doing cartwheels
The world is a shitshow as bad as the sequel

And if you gotta smash some plates to relax
I say do it - d-d-d-d-d-d-do it
And if you gotta crash your car in a lake to feel sane
I say do it - just do it
And if you gotta dance until the earth quakes
And her boyfriend’s a dick and you gotta regulate
I say think about it - he might destroy you
Think about it he might destroy you

Tear his limbs off

I don’t wanna be the stranger in your rearview mirror
I just wanna be the man you bring home for dinner

Oh to count the ways I love you.

Tue, 31 May 2011 11:22:11 -0700

Oh to count the ways I love you.

I can wait forever.

Wed, 18 May 2011 14:47:56 -0700

I can wait forever.

"“I could count the ways I’ve done wrong, but I’ve done that ten million times..."

Sat, 07 May 2011 22:30:32 -0700

“

“I could count the ways I’ve done wrong, but I’ve done that ten million times before. Don’t know why I felt so wrong about doing right. The nights drag as I shift to and fro, from worry to blistering confidence - always ending back at worry. I know. I worry too much. There’s a lot at stake here, and in light of recent points of clarity - I’m unwilling and unable to forthrightly cede this thing. This thing that has taken on a life of its’ own, this thing that has become something much more than I, or you, or Us.

Clarity is one of the more painful circumstances of the human condition. With clarity comes the truth, with the truth comes regret, with regret comes a lesson, and with each lesson comes grace.

Though, I will say one last thing: a lesson being learned is not equivalent to nor the cause of an ending. An ending hasn’t been written yet.”

”

I smell your perfume on my bedand my head’s a balloonAching from taking too many shots of...

Fri, 06 May 2011 19:25:36 -0700

I smell your perfume on my bed
and my head’s a balloon
Aching from taking too many shots of you

I’m hungover, runover, stomach is pumping
and I finally bit off more than I could chew
more than I could lose

I’m wasted without you

Not everyone is who you want them to be.

Sun, 17 Apr 2011 06:39:48 -0700

Not everyone is who you want them to be.